ahhh! help!
my chem hw is still UNDONE!
maybe i wont finish it up ah...
maybe ill just do what i can..
yup.
most importantly.. i must study for chem and econs.
why do i feel so complacent?
damn. i hate this feeling.
oh well.

anyways i got my new specs!
and i dunno if i what i got for my foster parents are appropriate.
shit..
i got them a set of johnsons and johnsons' stuff (powder, shower gel, lotion) and a packet of biscuits! haha
oh well.. at least smth..

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okay i think im back to following my tight timetable!
JC life is like having O lvls every single day man...
i miss obs..
it seemed so stress free there.. no worries at all..
back to civilisation, all the undesirable stress comes gushing back into my life..
argh.

i told my mom yesterday that i feel like not studying anymore and drop out from school, get married to a rich husband, have kids, stay at home, have 5 maids(1 to comb my hair, 1 to cook, 1 to look after the kids, etc hurhur) and enjoy life.
but of course to get a rich husband i must be on par with him.
i mean a poor and uneducated person can only get married to a rich man in fairytales right..
but then again, it'll be quite boring to stay at home..
maybe getting a job wouldnt be so bad after all..
that means, i have to continue studying and have a proper qualification.
damn.

anyways, i have a thick set of chemistry worksheet which i hope to complete by tmrw.. sigh. i spent ONE HOUR doing about 10 - 20 MCQ questions. wth. sickening. come to think of it, i dont think i quite grasp the induced dipole thing at all.. maybe i need to read up in details.. so far, ive only cancelled out ONE pathetic task, which i took 2 days to complete because i am good at wasting time. so ive completed only one math test paper.

i think im getting very good at sleeping. it's like a skill ive mastered out of laziness. maybe that explains why i havent been updating my blog a lot and why my hw is still hanging.. i woke up at 9 ystd (okay thats no so bad) and slept from 3 to 6+ in the afternoon. my grandmother got very angry i think.. oh well. today, i intended to go jogging at 7 but i woke up at 8. ughh. and what the hell am i doing online? oh because now is supposed to be 'nap time' cos i was supposed to wake up early this morning, according to my timetable.

i think this blog entry has turned into a ranting essay. gahh, i just find it sickening how little time we have to do so many things.

collecting new specs tmrw! i dunno how it'll look on me. im not sure i picked the right one.. gahh who cares right? i just feel bleedin irritated laaa...

i miss nasuha and afifah and ameera and aneesa!
wherefore art thou?

and i miss the swingin' monkeys. haha hayati, huda and amelia!
i hope we get to meet up on the 10th!
shiaaat, malay camp on 8th and 9th.
dental appointment on the 9th.
my mom's company's family day on the 9th as well.
why do appointments have to clash.
grr..

oh one more thing.
im sick of tidying up my wardrobe to find it messy again!
like seriously, what the hell is the problem???!

i wish i still had a maid...
but then again, maybe not.

okay bye.

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OBS was.... AWESOME.
but then again.. there were moments when i was down but it's okay.
there are so much to talk about it i dont even know where to start.
i dunno if i should even mention what happened..

hmmm...
okay basically what happened was...
the watch im in is TOCK SENG. :D
i got homesick on the first night and farah said i sleeptalked hahaha
sea expedition the next day. we kayaked to another place and stayed there for one night.
cooked our own meals..
set off the next morning back to obs campsite by trekking.
we got lost after 1.5 hours of walking. haha
reached the campsite after about.. er.. 3-4 hours i think.
it rained so we had to stop and we played games.. (:

when we reached the place, we climbed the rock wall which i couldnt initially... haha but made it eventually! :D
ermm... cooked our own dinner again..
practised our cheer with our buddy watch
the next morning, cheer competition.. we got into the finals. heehee..
then there was the challenge or smth..
we're supposed to work together as a school to earn credits for us to build 3 rafts..

then... er.. oh yes.. DINNER was the BESTEST time ever!
we realised we were all quite bonded at that time.
overall, i heard 4 people fart! hahah. so funny.
i mean, it seems so extraordinary even though it's normal to fart.
hahahah
at night, the Geylang Serai hung out together outside our tents but then one of the instructors warned us or smth, so the guys sat outside the girls' tents and we talked. but i kinda got sleepy and bored with the topic la actually.. and actually, i kinda felt grouchy inside but i dunno if i showed it, i dont think so.. i mean, how can i live 5 days without scolding anyone? so i just kept quiet if i feel irritated or smth. there are some points when i felt bleedin irritated but i just held my emotions in and pretended im fine.. this makes me relieved to be home.. otherwise, i dont mind going back there again. really.

i think i woke up at about 4+am this morning.. then i realised im sleeping on my mattress and a lot of pillows around me.. i was no longer in a tent with sleeping on a ponco with bottles as my pillow.. so i resumed sleeping. i think ill miss obs. yup. and our group was the last group for our instructor, daniel. aww. sad man. i think he's very inspirational and crazy. haha.

anyways, since obs is over, i think we're live our lives back to normal... no more tock seng. yup. oh well, its the experience that counts i suppose. ;)





next up.. Negeri Sembilan.
once it's over, the next day would be SCHOOL and i'll be having CHEMISTRY and ECONS test.
once word.
MADNESS.

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i feel sooo agitated!
maybe i shouldnt say why..
maybe im overeacting..
maybe im just giving in to my emotions.
maybe i shouldnt care at all!

there is a huge contrast between secondary school and college.
ive never seen anyone so mean in my entire life, especially to me.
i feel like saying what the hell is wrong with you? whats your effin problem?
i notice so much of people's ego protrude during this few months in college, especially in guys.
i mean like, i was never friends with people like this.
so now i see the different side of the world.
some people are just so MEAN MEAN MEAAAN.
they dont even think when they speak.

nono.. i shouldnt be saying this.
see? i think im just overeacting!
bahhs.
forget what i said.
i'm actually very angry at one person in particular.
if i have the power, i would love to....
snatch his water bottle away. ok you might not get this, but yea..

sometimes i wish i could sink people's ego to the bottom of the earth.
fine, not that i'm not egoistic at all..
but.. there's a limit to everything. even what you say.

gah, i dont wanna talk about this anymore.

OBS is the day after tmrw! how time flies!
shit!
im not readyyy!!!


damn, i realise my blog entries have all been negative!
why am i always angry when i reach home?
have i been bottling up my feelings?
i dont think so.
i laugh a lot when im with my friends.
hmmm.
maybe laughing used up too much energy.. so by the time i reached home, ill be too tired and i get really moody. arghh

there's still WORK to be completed tmrw, the day before OBS!
how shitty is that?
SOME pple dont have to(or rather CANT) go for OBS, yet theyre complaining about their load of work. im not saying who.. SOME pple. ugh.

lemme just sum up what happened today and the rest of the days..
ystd was choir concert.
the interval was chaotic. hurhur
farah, nurul, shikeen and me were starving like mad and we didnt have enough coins to buy cup noodles from the vending machine so we shared 2 cup noodles. syu and hafiszah were cool haha they went in first. omgsh, i think we were damn pathetic. very. extremely.

today, had to go for the Aksara thing at the NLB. it was okay la. then we learnt how to use the microfilm thing.. coool...

some mount everest exhibition at the library..

i cant wait for the negeri sembilan trip!
err... i hope obs will be over soon.
i dunno but i think camp and me = :'(


oh and about the 'pimple' on my neck, i had to wear the 'plaster' to school right, and it's so sickening how everyone looked at it. and some pple.. were mean. they said i was like cikgu said. hmphh. sigh it's okay.. patience is virtue.

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ahhh i feel HORRIBLE!
i just got that infected 'pimple' on my neck squeezed out by the doctor and ive to leave the 'dressing' on till tmrw after school or smth. and she said ive to cover up that area during obs as well!! and ive antibiotics to finish up. i never expect tt i'd be under medication during a major camp! grahhh. PLUS, ive a feeling my you-know-what is gonna be during camp as well.. how great can this be???? i feel depressed. WAAAA!! :'(

aaaaand ive to do my part for GPP by tonight!
i dunno if i should have just taken the mc just now.
damn.

gahhhh.

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i think my tolerance level as soon as i reach home is very limited.
i get worked up so easily and i cant find the cause.

econs test result was extremely shocking.
but i really have only God to thank.
Alhamdulillah!


in a way, i guess i am kinda thankful that i dont get into exco.
i think it was kinda obvious i wasnt really up for it when i went for the interview.
i mean, i didnt even know if i wanted to go for the interview.
so.. yeah. :D
and.. congrats to NURUL and CECILIA for getting to become excos!
and helmi for becoming the vice president, and timothy for becoming the president!
yup!


OBS next week!
shit.
i hate camps.
not that ive been to many.. hahah only ONE actually.
but.. everyone seems to be saying its FUN.
will i have the same perception?
convince me, will anyone?


maybe the reason why im feeling this way is that.. im really scared.
i must do well for everything.
and sometimes i wonder why i took chem.
i screwed up my SPA like so terribly yesterday.
sigh.
well, its over...

oh! and this big pimple liked thing on my neck is damn sickening!
it looks like a growth!
the doctor said it's an infection...
i hope it'll be alright before i leave for camp.
sigh.

Blogged @ 9:08:00 PM




i watched spiderman3 already and the ending was indeed tear jerking! (:

im trying to regain back the motivation to study..
there wasnt any homework on thursday and i started slacking since..
guess i lost the momentum. :S
there's not much hw for this weekend as well.
whyy??
hhahh crazy.

had math trail at suntec city ystd.
it was fun looking for the locations i guess.
but the questions were nerve wrecking. hurr.
we couldnt even do psle qns.
hahah!

didnt take many photos because my camera was on low batt. -_-
hahah

that's cecilia, nurul, shikeen, farah and me! (:




ps//and hayati darling, dont be too stressed out okay.. im sure there's a way out to the every problems. ;) and i bet we all agree, projects are sickening. love u!

pss// CHEM SPA ON TUE! AHH!!

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school ended at 3 today..
it was weird because ive been going home late everyday..
so the about 85% of the journey home, farah and i were thinking what we did last thursday because we couldnt remember why we went home late.
hahah. after we parted, i rmbred that we had make up lecture for chemistry. :/
hahaha

last night was... frustrating.
rushed through GPP and slept at 2am with the lights on.
i was still wearing my specs too.
because i fell asleep while doing the pronounciation thing which i didnt manage to complete of course. in the end the teacher didnt even go through.
hurr

okay have to go now byee!

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sigh.. i was late a for an msn meeting because i overslept..
so sorry! ):
nvm.. OUR GPP IS DONE!
okay... HOMEWORK TIME NOW.
it's 12.44am.
sighh...
okay, at least ive slept for about an hour or two just now. :D

i feel stressed. :(

Blogged @ 12:43:00 AM




tskk.
i woke up at about 7..
i finished my chem hw..
and slacked the whole day.
damn.

oh, and i ate mcflurry again!
ahhh! heavenly~ :D

it's the mother tongue languages week! hurr
so we did lots of activities during mt lessons like play scrabble and did quizzes.
oh and we watched 'Nujum Pak Belalang' ystd.
i think it's a story full of coincidence. too much actually.
but it's good la, different from other movies which are too logical at times.


anyways, these pictures are taken during the scrabble activity.. (:

intense.. hurr. that's zahirah, fahmi and shahrool.

the 'competition' team. haziq, helmi, mala and faiz.

shikeen, diyanah, nurul (sleep only.. hahah), and cecilia.

the word of the day. we gave up. hahah

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i should REALLY stop laughing unnecessarily. sigh.








okay, photos from monday and tuesday.





our FIRST pw meeting, only ruz and me turned up. haha
according to faiz, "we went to east coast in yishun"
because we were supposed to have a class outing at east coast but only 5 of us turned up, so we decided to stay in yishun.





the 'seaside' at LJS. hurr. (ljs serves seafood... geddit? harhar.. ok very funny)

LJS promoter

faiz's reaction after eating about millions of sour skittles at one go

helmi and farah discussing serious matter and there faiz was eating...

farah and me (:


MENDAKI GATHERING!

(for more photos.. go to my MSN space :D)

ALL OF US WHO TURNED UP!! :D




and... THE BESTIES! :D

YAY okay good night!
not much hw today.. ahh wonderful feeling. haha

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